Gardening plans screwed because I need taller containers. AUGH.
Really must go to bed now.
I don’t have patience to go through my closet. Maybe I will when I wake up. Must rid myself of all the crap clothing that will never be comfortable enough for me to wear. If it is not comfortable, it is not allowed in my life. I don’t care how I look or what people think of me, I’m going to feel good.
Cold chai lattes and ultra glittery nail polish.
Current relationship that I just cannot handle. I want to be alone always. Finding out what a person is really like and all about always comes too late. Breaking it off slowly should be the best way right now. Maybe not completely for the time being, it’s just I’ve been too overwhelmed by it and that makes me extremely irritable and stressed.
Visited my mom and her cat, Miss Kitty, who had six kittens. Sister came over and we went to eat Chinese and did a little shopping. Fell asleep watching Sayonara and crocheting.
Time to get off the computer, my hips hurt. Probably most definitely have arthritis all over. At least I got some of the baby blanket done. The baby was born last week. Should have it done in time for when she comes back to work. Besides, the baby won’t really need the hat and the blankie over the summer.
Later today is going to be filled with gardening and shopping for bottoms that are comfortable for my fatness. Nothing fits me right since I’ve been doing yoga. Now that I’m cycling I expect even more changes and I’m not exactly sure how I’ll turn out.
I’ve not been drinking so much coffee lately. Super tired, but at least I don’t have to pee. Like coffee and all, but it’s bad on my acid reflux and makes me bloated. Cue Zoolander quotes. Going to make only a little from now on. And more chai lattes to come, going to buy supplies to make concentrate.
Reebok zigtech shoes are the worst shoes I have ever worn. I have never been so irate over shoes. Trying to solve this dilemma with insoles and maybe taking out the ones that came in them (because unlike some other shoes these are removable) and putting some nice ones in. Didn’t spend a ridiculous amount on them because I got them on ebay, but they are so wretched.
Hoping to find some decent bottoms and not spending the whole day doing it. Les grr.
I really need to go to bed. And ice my tops of my feet and ankles. But I got my shopping done. May not be able to get them in right away, but I bought a pair of Lignum Vitae wood plugs. They are double flared, as everybody makes (les grr…) I’m not sure how they will handle with being in the shower, so I’ll have to be careful. Pissed that the glass tunnel broke. I had others made by the same people and dropped them in the shower all the time and they are still fine. I suppose this one was just too thin maybe. Getting the new wood ones from them as well.
Also bought a pair of Reebox Zigtech shoes on ebay. They are silver with pink soles for breast cancer awareness. Part of my payment goes to charity, so that’s nice. I hope they fit good or I’m going to be so pissed. Must go now.
My one earring fell out in the shower and broke. Stuck wearing the buffalo horn pair until I find something that will satisfy my standards.
I’m really fucking sick of this world and all the drug users who believe that they are not harming anybody or anything. It kills me knowing it will never stop and it is commonplace. I really don’t want to go to any more shows or even leave my domicile. Or get on the computer, since it is all over the damned tumblr. It’s not enough that I’ve been destroyed, everybody has to keep reminding me.
I’m not going to use my computer unless I absolutely have to. Done with this and everything else.
My new gentleman friend is the tits.
My drunken morning. Only the one video, I deleted the others from the camera because they were too depressing. The man in question is now my man. I’m just taking everything one moment at a time right now.
I ate the entire amount of fettuccine alfredo that I made. Too much. And a chocolate rabbit that my mother gave me. Why do I do this to myself? I haven’t done anything productive in my house, even though I said I would. There is no energy now. Took two vacation days. Oh well, have to save the body for the show. More later, but I really don’t feel like doing this anymore.
